You know what's really funny? When I was in high school, I really didn't think for myself. Not in the sense that I was dumb, but that I didn't really challenge what other people said. I, Helen, was a pushover. I was the stereotypical asian girl who politely nodded and agreed with what you said, mainly because a) I didn't want to risk offending anyone if I thought differently, or b) didn't think I was articulate enough to create a substantial counterargument. Well, the latter hasn't really changed but I realized that I've finally stopped giving main shits about what people think. I'm fucking cool and if you don't want to associate with me, then it's your loss. (Good god, when did I get so arrogant?) But in all honesty, it's taken me 7 years to see that I can actually have a backbone and for me to start formulating my own opinions. It's not that these 7 years have gone to waste - I've been doing a lot of observations. I guess you could say that now, I feel more comfortable with myself and can (sometimes) finally put into words how I feel about things instead of just pushing them to the side. Especially in relationships but I'm not sure if that's a completely good thing yet. I realize that I'm stubborn. Before I make a decision, I try to be as objective as I can be but you know what? I'm human. I have feelings for a reason. It's great to be objective and all, but at the core, I was ignoring how I was really feeling in my attempts to sympathize. So Helen, less that and more being you.

What's up finals week.