lack of a good title.

it's been a long time, blogpost/blogger.

what have I been up to?
1. finished my first year of college. albeit not at the place i had originally envisioned. quite a little off, actually. only time can tell.
2. i'm grown up a lot. yes, cue the jokes about how i'm a 5 year old. but this year, college put me through the typical "soul-searching route". not saying that i figured it out completely but maybe i'm on my way there.
3. got back with cameron? for some reason, i keep seeing things like "getting back with your ex is like being dirty, taking a shower and putting on your dirty clothes again." hm.
4. i'm been keeping up with a tv show? shocking right? i agree.
5. i forged a lot of new friendships that i'm pretty happy about at SC.
6. for some reason, now i'm a lot less inclined to open up. i just dont. not my thing anymore. not that it ever was.
7. lucky number seven. i really dont have anything for seven but i just wanted to have seven things. frisbee. it's saved my life. i'm pretty sure if i didn't have frisbee practice, i'd just be a blubbering, sobbing mess.

(7.5) got my gall bladder taken out! fun fun fun.

tomorrow, i'll be off to china until july. boyfriend asked me if i'm ready to go. my response? i'm ready to get away from everyone. and it's true. i'm ready to get away from judgement, pity looks, and pushy people. and to be honest, i need a break from him. lately, it's just felt like a chore and i feel like a burden to him. i need a breather. a break. to re-examine my priorities, my life goals and what i think of myself.

onward, we march.